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I am... controversial. I never like the same things two days in a row. I have a myriad of good intentions, but no intention of fulfilling them. I hate hearing arguments, but love the thrill of participating in them, most of the time...
I am... a cynical romantic. I believe that, while love will always end in pain that it is not worth, it is the only thing that makes life worth living. I fall in love easily, and fall out of love hard. I can love someone to the point of physical addiction and still wait for them to leave me.
I am... an idealistic realist. I fight for ideals I know I cannot reach, and will still be disappointed at my failure.
I am... a sensualist. I believe, that although there is no such thing as pure truth, goodness or freedom, that beauty can be found in everything, and we should always try and make things beautiful even though we cannot reach perfection. I relish the smallest feelings, satin against my skin, the smell of a rose, the warmth of the sun... the breath of a lover.
Live in the moment, for once it is gone, it is not coming back.
Today I realised something: something I feel I have been trying to put in words all my life. To believe in God - whether he exists, or not - is a crime against life. Anything good you do in this life, you do for him, if you believe, and not for the people it benefited. It is a sin against yourself for you give him all credit for anything remotely good, and retain all evil as "through our own fault". I believe in humanity. We deserve to take responsibility for ALL our actions, good and bad, and we deserve the actions that are done to us to be done for us, not for some distant, unknown, probably non-existant deity.
I believe in humanity, and despair because we are, by our very nature, flawed.