. I can taste the poison on your tongue
. And it never tasted sweeter
. Crystal tears and tainted love
. What could be better?
. Slicing flesh and yearning lust
. I crave the taste of your lips
. Beautiful and deadly
. SWEET ARSENIC KISSES
I am a sophmore living in the middle of the United States. My life is by far boring and there is nothing I can do about it. I'll admit one thing. I am not good. Nor have I ever truly been a good girl at heart. I am 15 years of age and already I've been through a lot more than many girls at my age and can say I wouldnt change a thing. I wouldnt be where I am today if it werent for the pain of my past. I couldnt appreciate the love I hold so dearly if I'd have never been victimized by lust. And I would never have the boyfriend I live for if I didnt know what it was like to want to die more than anything. I wouldnt see the point of living if it werent for the years I spent bleeding and I wouldnt know how to feel proud if I have never been ashamed and humiliated. Although I may not be happy with my life, I am happy with the people in it. I am in love, I am corrupted, I am flawed and I am damaged. I am just an average every day girl with a lot on my mind with a voice to speak my opinions and with a desire to stand out.
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Wish upon every star that he'll love you just as much
But wishful thinking wont get you far and you'll die without his touch
Now you know how it feels to be me.
Faking a smile- it's so hard to breathe
Falling apart with blood on your sleeve
Hiding the truth-- They'll never believe
Slave of the blade--- you just want to be free.
So lay her down to rest
In a coffin made of stone
Six feet in the ground
My happiness is stained with your lies
But now I laugh as you bleed inside
A fallen angel in disguise
I'll pull off your wings and watch you die
I'd give you my heart but you'd just break it, I'd give you my life but you'd just take it. I'd tell you I love you but your reply would be fake, I've already learned from my mistakes.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be, but I'm the closest thing to hell that you've ever seen...
I hide my pain day by day And in the light I've lost my way
I hope you drown in my sorrow
And I hope my misery will kill
You don't deserve anything
Never have and never will
You hold my heart within your hands
And with one kiss I feel whole again.
I love you more than anything
For you I would die
But I love you even more than that
For you I will survive
And baby dont you know- you mean the world to me
And baby cant you see-- you're my everything.
Tonight the stars bleed her pain- She's broken again, nothings changed.
The minutes pass faster and faster but if life is so short why wont it just end?
The tears wont stop falling
As you try your hardest not to cry
And the blood wont stop flowing
As you try so hard to stay alive
You contaminate the air I breathe
With every breath you take
So smile and say your sorry
But you've never been so fake
A heart broken girl punished for what sheís done
Hiding her scars, she just wants to be loved
Stain the beauty with your blood
And tell them all you died for love
And I don't know what is happening
It just gets so hard to breathe
My dreams have become reality
And my reality is just a dream.
And looking at the empty skies
As the stars bleed your pain
You put the gun to your head
And shower blood on all the graves
And yet you stand by her side
As she turns your heaven into hell
Her biggest secret entrusted in you
She knows you'll never tell...
Rip away her deceiving wings
--She is not angel--
This love fills my heart
And rips it to shreds
No longer empty threats
Without you Iím dead
And as I slice through each layer of skin
I'm left in the sweetest bliss
Save yourself the pain I bring
I don't deserve to exist
Always my love
Through thick and through thin
Fighting back the tears
Slicing the skin
Pulling back the flesh
Revealing the sin
Always and forever
Failed in the end.
A shattered innocence falls apart
But it's just another result of a broken heart
Tear me apart just to watch me bleed
Because in the end thatís all Iíll ever need
And I wish for you to be by my side
But your promises hold only lies
Iíll fake a smile through my tears
And know in my heart you donít really care
And with these pills Iíll find my cure
Cause you cant love me if you love her
And with this rope around my neck
Iíll grant you freedom and wont come back
And with this blood Iíll write my will
My heart is yours to hold and kill
Not the happiest of kids now am I?
That was such a cute story. I really did like it. It made me smile. God, this was so well written and discriptive. I love this story, keep it up please.
wow. I'm reading this story, and its so amazing. I love it. This was great. :) god, you make sex with him sound so great. Not good right now, not good at all. lol. Great story though!!
ooh, that is so cute. god, wouldnt it be heaven if all boys were like this?
omg i loved that. i wanna cry.
omg! i am in love with this story!! Favorites!
ooh, that was too sweet. i cant even stop smiling! god, they are a couple now and everything!! YAY! :) :) :)
i havent even finished reading the whole chapter yet, but im at the part where Blaise says he'd swear that Draco was in love with her and he said 'perhaps'. I had to cover mouth so i wouldnt wake the house up while saying "aaawwww"
Anyways- - back to reading i suppose!
ok, im finished.
God, i'd slap that girl. Pansy is just jealous that she's easy and Draco doesnt want that!
lol...oooh theres going to be some drama.
This is just like high school, only with magic!
Hermione knew this thing she had with Malfoy was purely physical. She knew she shouldn't have fallen in love with him. And she knew that when he said he loved her too, a dozen misfortunes would befall them. Yet they both did admit it and just when she thought this temporary relationship might just last, she was left all alone and he?...Well he became one of Them.
RUNNER-UP in the Dangerous Liaisons Awards for "The Where Did That Come From Award" (Best Twists and Turns) and WINNER in the He Had it Coming Awards.
I also want to add that all this support you all have given me is just fabulous. Thanks a lot. I love you guys!
what the hell happened? poor hermione!
omg thats so sad. ooh god, thats really sad. poor poor hermione. god id kill the fucker!
omg. no baby? god I'm just going to read ahead to the last chapter to make sure everything turns out ok. how could you write something so wrong? :) lol. your evil.
god thats so cute. i like how you end each chapter so far with the title of the chapter. i really like this so far.
god, thats so awesome. i love the ending lines! this is so hot. god, he is so hot. lol.
ooh my god, this is so sad. god, i cant believe this happened. *tear* :(
this is really good. i cant wait to see what happens naxt. your talent is my new addiction. :) lol.
wow, in a way, they remind me of me and my boyfriend. We've been together for 7 months, we love eachother to the death, and we love, well... you know...sex and all too. But sometimes i feel like i dont know him at all. He's had such an impact on my life, and i know i have had one on his, but yeah...this chapter just reminded me of us....it made me sad. i cant wait to read the ending chapters...i think.
thats so sad. that evil whore.
no? not really? him, being a father? Shes only a teen herself. wow. this is kinda hot.
This was a great end to the story. Love can not only make people do crazy things, but hurt eachother in order to love each other even more. love is immortal, and you showed it so well in this story. I was entranced by every chapter i read, falling faster and faster into the wonders and pain of this story. It's pathetic really. I had always longed for love. Ever lasting, never dying, eternal, and immortal love. And i have found it. But this showed me a whole new side of love. Is it pathetic that i embraced every emotion they held so deeply, just wishing my love would show me the same affection? We fight so much. And i thought it wasnt worth the pain. I was ready to give up, to help him, and myself. I know he loves me, and he has also carved my name in his arm (crazy huh? but it is love after all...) but, this story made me look at him in a whole different light. I, the good girl, was corrupted by his love, every kiss, every touch, every time alone in his room, I turned to be addicted to him, Like hermione to draco. And he, being the cold one, never wanting to love never wanting to feel, did. For me. And i have changed him just as much as he has changed me.And reading this story, getting an outward look on the whole subject, has helped me fall deeper in love (is that even possible?) Your story has auctually helped me. If that makes any sence to you. It taught me never to give up on love, because everything hurts in this world, love most of all, but if you have no one to share the pain with, you just might not make it. Great write. You really do have a talent. Never give up, because that would be a waste of potential. And you're living up to every ounce of yours. Great write. Great ending. i love it.
omg. thats so cute. god, i love this story. im so happy for draco and hermione. a baby? wow. but the way im acting, you'd think they were auctually real.
ooooh wow. hes so cute. i love this story.