I am woomama, aka Tina. I am 38 years old, mother of 2 wonderful children ages 10 & 8. I love reading and have always wanted to be a writer. Usually I read Fantasy/SciFi books. I have been a part of the SCA (ask me). Castles, Dragons, Knights and Damsels in distress have always been my passion. However Harry Potter has become my obsession. Finding Mugglenet and most especially FanFiction has been a dream come true. I am having entirely too much fun. It has brought alot of joy into my life at a time of great stress and unhappiness. It is giving me a chance to hone my writing skills and has gotten me taking notes, once again, for my own novel that I plan to write someday. I am also meeting alot of very wonderful people from all over the world.
As for my story, I am having alot of fun writing it. I am not really even sure where it is going but I have lots of ideas.
Special Thanks go out to Skulblaka and Professor_Lupin_Lover, and now Insecurity, my wonderful Beta's. Without them I am sure that I would never get anything approved.
Back to the fun. Enjoy. And if you do read, please review. Not all writers write solely for themselves, I think some of us need to know that we are making others happy too.
Summary: What happens when the Order's most valuable spy loses his memory? Severus Snape fights to survive in a world he can no longer remember and in the process rediscovers the love of his life.
Severus Snape/Original Character.
Ok. I was a little disconcerted by the fact that it was late morning then it was evening and he was going to bed. I think somewhere in there it should have said "after talking for hours" or "as the day waned" or something like that, because the time passage was a bit off. I am very interested to see how he deals with Voldy-shorts without a memory. So off we go.
Author's Response: That\'s true. I hadn\'t thought about the time discrepancy. I will have to fix that. Thank you for pointing that out. : D
Well that certainly was lucky that Voldemort was preoccupied. I am still not sure what I think of Camilla, but she may be growing on me. It's hard to reconcile this Snaoe with what I am used to reading. I imagine that people who read my story have the same problem. In this he has no memory, in my story he has been locked in a cottage alone for over a year and now suddenly has company. Ok, I am going on.
Author's Response: I hope Camilla starts to grow on you. I know she\'s not Hermione, but you can forgive her for that one tiny imperfection, can\'t you? *bats eyelashes* Are you saying that my Snape is OOC? Why about my Snape are you not liking? I\'d like to know what you think of my characterization of him. I know he\'s a little different because of the memory loss but I hope he still retains his Snape-ishness at the same time. Anyway, thanks for reading and reviewing! : D
Wooo hoooo.. almost had some lemons there. I enjoyed this chapter, however it seemed kind of rushed. I can't read another right now, but I will give you a big review when I catch up.
Author's Response: Lemons in the hallway! What\'s wrong with Camilla anyway? Silly girl. I don\'t think I\'d be pushing him away, but that\'s just me... What part seemed rushed? The part in the Three Broomsticks? Do I need to elaborate more? I really appreciate the constructive criticism. It helps a lot. : D
Wow! That was intense. Short chapter but chock full of tension. I don't think I blame Severus for being mad, it seems a big thing to be keeping from him at a time like this. I am just glad that Camilla was able to get through to him and calm him down enough to get him home. I saw one typo that you might want to change and that is: She didn’t think he would never hurt her, but she was honestly becoming frightened of him now. I am pretty sure that you were meaning to say: She didn't think he would EVER hurt her,
Another fabu chapter, can't wait for the next. xoxoxo woomama
Author's Response: Thanks, Tina!
Ok just finished the last 2 chapters. I loved the drinking contest. Camilla has just gained another point in my book, knowing that she was going to enter into a drinking contest and then not even win. I thought for sure she had a trick up her sleeve, but apparently it was just to see him loosen up. How very IC of Severus to just leave her there. He tried to help her, but she resisted, so he's out of there. Wonderful!
Author's Response: Hee hee. I\'m so glad you liked it! I knew that Camilla would get under your skin eventually. And yes, Snape would definitely be likely to leave her there to suffer for her own stupidity. I\'m so happy you\'re enjoying it! : D
ooooo so Severus is going to meet with Narcissa, how will he even know where their "usual spot" is? For crying out loud, he doesn't even know who she is or who her son is. Once again, brilliant flashback. Camilla has to remember that if she wants to be with Severus she has to take the good with the bad, and there is an awful lot of bad that comes with that baggage. Wonderful chapter once again.
Author's Response: Yep, it will be interesting to see if Severus can find her. I\'m glad you like the flashback. And yes, Camilla has to understand what it\'s going to be like to be with him. It\'s not always that easy, though. : ( Thanks for reading! : )
Well well well, things certainly aren't what they seem for poor Severus. He just keeps finding out things that make him unhappy. At least he didn't do the nasty with that cow Narcissa in the Forbidden Forest. Something about her just struck me as whiny in HBP, and I am happy to see that you have quite stuck to canon in respect to her in your story as well. Just goes to show you that you can wipe Severus brain clean and he does still have a bit of conscionce left. Anyway.. another brilliant chapter, keep em coming. Oh and have your "People" call my "People" because I think I am missing a review too. :)
Author's Response: Yes, the more he finds out, the worse it gets for him. And I\'m glad you agree with me on Narcissa\'s character. I had a feeling that she was faking a lot of those tears at Spinner\'s End to manipulate Snapey. I\'m glad you like it and my people say you\'re crazy and they don\'t know what you\'re talking about. :P
Short yes, but very prominant for the story. I really like that he is upset by these memories, it is showing a side of Severus that we rarely see. He has lost his memory, he doesn't know exactly how he was or how to be now, so these flashes of memory should be upsetting to him. I also like that he feels guilty even though he has no way of knowing if this was something that occurred before Camilla or after, again it shows his uncomfortable and totally un-Severus like manners because of the memory loss. I found nothing to nit pick in this chappy, it was lovely in it's brevity and I can't wait for more.
Author's Response: Thanks a bunch, Tina. It seems that the more Severus finds out about his life, the more upset and confused he gets. I know I would be highly disturbed if I was him and found out these things. Yes, he does have a conscience and is worried that he betrayed the one person who really loves him. Poor Severus! Thanks for reviewing!
oooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok lovely lovely chappy again. The letter is making it so intriguing. Is Camilla having an affair? Is she being blackmailed? Is she possibly a spy for Voldemort? Oh the questions just keep building. Now, on to the flashback, I love the flashbacks. That tramp Narcissa, but at least it is before they were married, in fact they are broken up so he can do whatever he likes. He doesn't have to feel guilty, of course he doesn't know that, but he doesn't. I have never like Narcissa. She always seems so whiny and pushy all at the same time. I think you portrayed her exactly as I would have. Wonderful job again Sara. I love it!
Author's Response: Yes, the letters will torment all of you for quite a while. Narcissa is very manipulative. That\'s how I saw her in Spinner\'s End. I think she totally played Snape with her tears and begging and all that. I\'m glad she\'s coming across as realistic and the trampy b**** that she is. Thanks, Tina!
What an idiot!!! Whew, ok, now that I have gotten that out of my system, I think. Good chapter. I am really starting to identify with Camilla, although I still think she is a fool and is putting too much thought into it. In the bar she pushed him away, hurt his pride and now in the castle, as his wife, she pushes him away yet again. Good thing he doesn't remember the hurt he felt that first time. I could just see Severus using that against her in this situation. Plus, nothing like a snog-fest to jog a man's memory. I am enjoying this fic and can't wait to find out what happened to make Severus lose his memory.
Author's Response: Thanks, Tina! Yes, Camilla is crazy, isn\'t she? She has this need to protect herself and she thinks she\'s going to get hurt. Still... You will find out eventually why he lost his memory. *wink* Thanks for reviewing and I\'m really glad you\'re enjoying it! : D
Once again, I love this story. I think it truly shows the depth of his character when you show how Severus is affected by the Death Eater activities. I know that if it weren't for the amnesia he wouldn't be in so much pain over what he has seen, probably over and over for the last 20 years, but this helps to bring them back to a close relationship. I also really like the flashbacks. We get a taste of what is happening now as well as how they came to be together. Try as I might I couldn't find anything to critique in this chapter. You are doing a wonderful job with this story, keep it up.
Author's Response: Thank you so much! I figure that seeing what the Death Eaters were all about would be a shock to him. But you\'re right, if he hadn\'t lost his memory, he probably wouldn\'t have been as affected by it. He has probably seen worse and done worse before. Camilla seems to keep him sane and gives him a reason to keep fighting. I\'m glad you like the flashbacks and seeing how they fell in love in the first place. That\'s a great compliment that you couldn\'t find anything wrong with this chapter. Thank you, Tina! *huggle*
Lovely chappy. I love the little wake up by-play between Camilla and Severus. They seem so much more comfortable with each other now. The flashback was sooooo sweet. He was trying so hard and being so sincere. I can't imagine that was a very easy thing for him to do, in love or not. Severus Snape is just not comfortable with his feelings, period. The only nitpicky thing I have to say is that you might consider putting an
More lemons, more lemons! I do wish your chapters were a bit longer because I just get going and it seems that it is over. But the story has pulled me in and now I want to know what happens next. Is the Dark Lord going to realize that Snape has lost his memory? Is he going to force him to do somthing that this altered Snape doesn't want to do? I will be waiting to find out.
Author's Response: Lemons! Not enough to make lemonade, but... I\'m sorry the chappies are too short, but I\'m glad they leave you wanting more! I can\'t really say what the Dark Lord will or won\'t find out, but I can say that there are things Severus doesn\'t know yet that will make his life even more difficult in the future. Keep reading. All will be revealed in time. : D Thanks for reviewing!
Hehe I hadn't seen the Friends connection until you mentioned it, that was masterful. Kind of makes you wonder who really asked who. :) I like the flashback with Severus being all playful too *drools* I can never get enough of that. It will be interesting to see the party from Severus' POV, can't wait.
Author's Response: Thanks! I didn\'t really think Severus would be into the whole romantic, down on one knee type of proposal. I think he would approach it more logically.
This is something I have never even thought about doing. Severus with amnesia, amazing! Ok, I am a little put out by Camilla not being Hermione, but I think that is something that I really need to get over. After all I have accepted Maeve, to an extent. You paint a very good picture of the surroundings, I almost didn't recognize Severus' dungeon rooms, but the rest of the castle came into vivid view. I have only read this one chapter but I will certainly be reading more, soon. You have caught my attention with this and I want to know what is happening, amost as much as Severus does.
Author's Response: Camilla is much cooler than Hermione. :P (Just kidding. Kinda...) I\'m glad you liked the description of the setting. I hate writing description and my beta practically forced me to do it, so I\'m glad the end result was good. Yay! I\'m glad you like my little plot bunny. I\'m anxious to see what you think of the next few chapters. I know you\'ll like Camilla. Most of my readers like her more than they like me. *sigh* Such is life. Thanks for the review! : D
This is a wonderful chapter. I loved the fact that Camilla pushed him away and is now realizing what she did was a huge mistake. Well maybe she just doesn't know for sure. She certainly is worried about him when she finds out that Voldemort is back. So much so that she had to go to him on the off chance that she would be able to get in and knowing the gates are probably locked, which they were. I really like the real-world flavor you add to this story. It is not all about overcoming adversity and being left heppily ever after. It is about real misconceptions that happen in real relationships every day. I can see everything that is happening in this story (as far as relationships go) could happen in real life. I still really like the flashbacks and the going back and forth between them. It really is very smooth and I have no idea how you manage it. I took extra time to try and find something to nitpick and I couldn't. Maybe I like the story too much to notice or there just plain isn't any. Good Job! Let's have some more. :)
Author's Response: Thank you very much, Tina. Camilla makes a lot of mistakes when it comes with Severus, and he makes a lot of mistakes with her, as well. She was definitely scared for him and had to do whatever it took to find out if he was all right. Thanks so much for saying that this is real and close to what would happen in real life. It\'s really easy for me to get carried away in my fantasies (it is Severus, after all. *swoon*). I\'m glad you like the flashbacks and that they seem to flow well. It\'s not easy to go back and forth like that without losing continuity. Thanks for the lovely review. *huggle*
"He gazed gratefully up at the many ramparts of the castle that, up until few minutes ago, he doubted he would never see again." Ooopsie, shouldn't that be "he doubted he would ever see again."
Wow, another great chapter! I have always wondered how it would look when Severus stood in front of the Dark Lord for the first time, again. I think you captured it perfectly. Yeaaaaa they are back together. Try to keep it that way. (Hint Hint!) The letters are intriguing. I am still wondering if she is being blackmailed, or maybe she knows about the other woman. Update soon, I cannot wait!
Author's Response: Ooh, thanks for noticing that. I will fix it. And yes, they\'re back together. For now... The letters are very important. That\'s all I can say. Thanks for reviewing, Tina! : )
Summary: Ron wonders why he and Hermione have yet to start a romantic relationship and he takes drastic measures to find out.
Ohhhhhhh lemony cliffy. I am dying.
Author's Response: :D I know and I left people just hanging there for soooo long. Sorry aobut that!
Another good chapter. I was very disappointed that Severus is being asked to stay away from Hermione, but I guess it is to be expected. Ahhh but will a bad boy such as him actually listen? That is what I am counting on.
Author's Response: LOL! Snape, listen? He seems too much like his \'own person\' to heed the advice of an overprotective den mother, I think. :) Thank you. ~Ginny
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! Nothing say fabulous chapter like a reader laughing out loud and waking their children, whoopsie!
I am a firm believer in Severus is either written right or horribly wrong, you have nailed him! From “Kindly tell me what you’re going on about, woman.” all the way to “Damn witch,” he snarled. I thought he was dead on. I also like the way you have aged Hermione and given her more of a self assured attitude and not so whiny. I'd like to think that everything that Harry, Ron and Hermione go through while in school will giver her backbone. Well take her punching Malfoy in Third year for example. Anyway, I love this chapter and am totally looking forward to the next.
Author's Response: LOL! Your poor kids! I do that to mine all the time. *snicker* I\'m glad you like my Severus and Hermione. This is totally how I see them. :) Thank you! ~Gin