lol since I've taken a lot of tests telling me who/how I am, why don't I use them? they are very true, you know.
"Awake, yet never truly alive, I seek valuation beyond reality"
Life is unfulfilling for you, and you aren't very fond of it. What you like is your own imaginative world , which can be your daydreams, stories you write or anything similar (*cough*). You always prefer that before the actual life.
To people you come off as quite lonesome, and you may wish you had more friends, but you are more of a hoper than someone who takes action (*damn, that's true...lol...*). That is how you remain lonely. Or maybe you just don't find anyone who you can relate to. Inside you feel empty, like you are missing something important that you can't quite put a finger on what it is.
Somehow you wish to be swept away from the normality and led into something extraordinary (*Severus Snape's bedroom?*). This has yet to happen, and you keep on feeling disappointed with the little that life has to offer. At least you continue to express yourself through art/writing/poems/daydreaming (*thanks the Gods for that!*).
And d'you know what my word is?
Your word is: Confused.
You have reached a stage in life where you have lost yourself completely. Identity-crisis is only the first name, and this is really depressing you.
All you want is to be yourself, but how can you, when you know nothing?(*goooood question!*) Others can not help in this situation, only you can find yourself again and become whole once more.
And what am I?
The Wanderer - The lost
The one who never has a place to belong. The outcast amongst people, Wanderers find life to be rather lonely. There is an empty feeling inside of them that they can't seem to get rid of. However, not all is pain for them. Despite what others might think, they are very much capable of being happy and sad (*duuuh*). Due to the fact that Wanderers always feel misplaced -to some extent- some adjust to how others are, just to have a place to be. The others in this category tend to shy away from people, preferring their own company, certain that they don't fit in. Both categories however, do keep most of their personal thoughts inside (*believe me; it's for the best! I'm too weird....*).
Wanderers tend to wish for a place where they are meant to be, resulting in a lot of daydreaming (*cooouuugh*). Personality wise they are, in fact, dreamers. It doesn't mean they believe that they wish for will come true (*I'm not daft, y'know*). Their inner world is simply better than this one (*oh yesss....lol*). Most Wanderers try to find their special place, no matter if they are a passive-aggressive or a fearless individual. It is something they are drawn to do by nature (*there you go! the laws of nature is not to be broken....where's my next stop?*).
Wanderers are also found to be hard to truly satisfy (*.....*). Nothing will ever be the way they would have preferred/wanted it to be, and they tend to be disappointed a lot. It is not that they are perfectionists, they simply want for something to feel "right". Because of this, they often second-guess things/actions/relationships (*I feel hit....*). Low self-esteem is a high possibility, as they often doubt themselves (*I thought that was a good thing....am I bad?*).
As their hole in their heart is constantly there, they may be prone for depression, as rarely anything is giving them true satisfaction (*could explain why I eat so much chocolate...I only do that when I'm depressed/miserable...*). One day they may find their personal heaven, but it is important they are not too caught up in fantasies, or else they might pass by it blindly, missing it forever (*thanks...um...has it passed me yet?!*).
Quote: "Illusion is the first of all pleasures." -Oscar Wilde
Depressing and a bit scary, isn't it?
Well, not much left to tell. I'm from Sweden...I'm female...I've got a dog namned Lukas, two older brothers named Ola (25yrs old) and Per (22yrs old) and my mum's name's Lena (49yrs old) and my dad's Kaj(52yrs old)...
The only things I like about school is that you meet ppl you don't really hang out with otherwise, and I also like the learning. That sounds like I'm a swot, which I'm not, but I can't explain it; it just is fun to learn.
Yeah...anyways, I can be found on other sites such as 'ff.net' (reflecting) and 'hpff.com' (snapeist). I'd love some reviews :)