I could feel them coming towards me.
Feel the pain in my veins.
My bones, the very marrow of them, were screaming at the memory of the pain.
I could see myself from above. There I was, shivering, shaking, shrieking on the floor. It made me sick, hate myself for being so weak. Like such a Muggle. I spit the word in my head.
“Betrayal,” the snake whispered in my ear.
The small, coherent part of my mind, the semi-sane part, screamed for me to “STOP!”
But the thing, the things, was standing in front of me, watching, I could feel it staring through my tattered, tortured soul. I raised my head a fraction before the pain could overcome my will. He was there. Red eyes, slit eyes, glowing eyes, laughing, ridiculing. It was all I could see in my exquisite agony.
Exquisite. The lucid division laughed a maniac’s titter at a thought of poetry.
The angel of my torment slinks even nearer. I live and relive the worst reality, or is it a horrid nightmare? Am I finally going to collapse? NO. NO. Bella. They can’t, they won’t take it, take you! The Kiss is forbidden. My mind is screaming at me.
But I’m still lying on the cold, stone floor.
Suddenly, a voice, a voice I remember from somewhere, some past, calls. Barks orders. The snake, the Dementor, hisses, but floats away.
A solid arm grabs me, and I can see the face. The stone floor seeps away. I’m standing, not lying down as I thought.
My own recognition hits me like a slap. I’m almost totally cognizant, or as much as one can be after years in Azkaban prison, and I am mortified. My pride, self-pride, is smashed into thousands of pieces at my shame.
He walks me out, past the hellish cells around me.
I walk out the iron-work gates, the gates I was sent through countless years ago. The sharp memory stirs a long-dormant rage inside of me. My fingers itch for my wand, and finally, the dull sunlight hits me in the face.